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Firstborn: A Memoir

Firstborn: A Memoir

by Lauren Christensen

Penguin Press ·2025 ·208 pages ·Memoir
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A lapidary memoir of losing a child before she can be born, which the author began writing the day she came home from the hospital—a story about the intimate closeness of our most searing losses and our brightest hopes"Some days I still think this is all just a sad story I'll tell Simone one day."Lauren Christensen is a 30-something editor in New York City when she meets her husband, Gabe, a writer with whom she falls in love right away. Her beloved grandfather is dying, but the young couple is bringing new life into the Lauren and Gabe joyfully discover she is pregnant with their daughter, Simone.As she faces the prospect of becoming a mother herself, Lauren learns to let go of the fear of abandonment and need for control that growing up with a largely absent father and a high-powered mother who was always away on business instilled in her. She and Gabe are incandescently happy in their exuberant, messy, beautiful shared world. But just weeks after their wedding, they learn that their worst nightmare has come Simone is dying in the womb.In fierce, intimate, spellbinding prose, Lauren Christensen brings us to the very heart of the human how do we live when everyone who makes up our world will someday be gone? And how can we mourn when the cosmic order has been turned upside down—when a child dies before she is born? As she comes up against the brutal limits of maternal healthcare, and the limitlessness of her love for her daughter, Lauren Christensen finds a key, generous and brave, in which to share her loss, a testimony whose diamond-like brilliance refracts a universal light.


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"It is a testament to Christensen's storytelling talent that the book's sense of suspense is nonetheless acute ..."

Priscilla Gilman· The Boston Globe Read review ↗ Top of the Pile

"It is in the painful, detailed events of Simone's death in her mother's womb and the wrenching decision to terminate the pregnancy...that Christensen's spare, sometimes glancing style serves so well."

Amy Bloom· The New York Times Read review ↗ Top of the Pile

"The page-turning tracing of actuality in Firstborn is a treasure for readers, as we navigate difficult passages of our own, whatever their nature."

Kathryn Rhett· The Washington Post Read review ↗ Top of the Pile

"It's a stunning achievement."

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"Transforming Simone's experience into words, Christensen has created art that will undoubtedly offer comfort to others."

Annie Bostrom· Booklist Read review ↗ Near the Top

"A frank account of the fine, eerie thread between death and life."

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