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Unmasked: My Life Solving America's Cold Cases

Unmasked: My Life Solving America's Cold Cases

by Paul Holes; Robin Gaby Fisher

Celadon Books ·2022 ·288 pages
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From the detective who found The Golden State Killer, a memoir of investigating America's toughest cold cases and the rewards--and toll--of a life solving crime. I order another bourbon, neat. This is the drink that will flip the switch. I don't even know how I got here, to this place, to this point. Something is happening to me lately. I'm drinking too much. My sheets are soaking wet when I wake up from nightmares of decaying corpses. I order another drink and swig it, trying to forget about the latest case I can't shake.Crime-solving for me is more complex than the challenge of the hunt, or the process of piecing together a scientific puzzle. The thought of good people suffering drives me, for better or worse, to the point of obsession.People always ask how I am able to detach from the horrors of my work. Part of it is an innate capacity to compartmentalize; the rest is experience and exposure, and I've had plenty of both. But I had always taken pride in the fact that I can keep my feelings locked up to get the job done. It's only been recently that it feels like all that suppressed darkness is beginning to seep out.When I look back at my long career, there is a lot I am proud of. I have caught some of the most notorious killers of the twenty-first century and brought justice and closure for their victims and families. I want to tell you about a lifetime solving these cold cases, from Laci Peterson to Jaycee Dugard to the Pittsburg homicides to, yes, my twenty-year-long hunt for the Golden State Killer.But a deeper question eats at me as I ask myself, at what cost? I have sacrificed relationships, joy—even fatherhood—because the pursuit of evil always came first. Did I make the right choice? It's something I grapple with every day. Yet as I stand in the spot where a young girl took her last breath, as I look into the eyes of her family, I know that, for me, there has never been a choice. "I don't know if I can solve your case," I whisper. "But I promise I will do my best."It is a promise I know I can keep.


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"a very personal, touching narrative in which Holes shares some of his biggest successes while also exploring his vulnerability, exposing his shortcomings as a husband and father, and laying bare his insecurities and struggles to understand himself outside the context of his work ..."

Gabino Iglesias· San Francisco Chronicle Read review ↗ Top of the Pile

"Folks in law enforcement are often reluctant to acknowledge the contributions of journalists and lay investigators, but Holes commends McNamara for collecting and sharing evidence ..."

Kathryn Casey· The Washington Post Read review ↗ Top of the Pile

"occasionally gruesome ..."

Kirkus Read review ↗ Near the Top

"Holes's lifelong struggles with panic attacks only make his professional achievements more impressive."

Publishers Weekly Read review ↗ Top of the Pile

"Holes' passion for his profession leaps from each page, but that passion and unfettered focus on the job adversely affected his personal life."

Michelle Ross· Booklist Read review ↗ Near the Top

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